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Thursday, July 29, 2010

A Long Way Still To Go...

Someone said something to me today...She said I've come a long way...

Cade as everyone knows was a preemie. As a preemie, he was offered certain programs. One in particular was a Child Service Coordinator. She is a social worker that basically does an evaluation on him every other month until the age of 3. If she feels that there is an area of development which requires therapy, she will coordinate services. Cade is supposed to be evaluated for speech therapy, that's the only thing that has been a concern so far. And really it's not that big of a concern, but when I hear other kids his age speaking in full sentences and Cade isn't really there, well I just want to be sure. So we have seen our CSC every other month for over 2 years now. I'm kind of sad actually now that I think about it, in October Cade will be 3, which means he will graduate from the program.

Anyway, our CSC has basically been with me from the start of my separation. And we have talked every month and seen each other every other month for a long time. Did I mention I am officially divorced as of July 14, 2010? I am! So shes been there...start to finish...she saw it unfold.

Our CSC called me at work today, just to check up on Cade...and that's when she told me that I've come a long way. And she would know I suppose, she has been someone on the outside looking in, watching for the last two and a half years. I stayed for as long as I did because I was afraid I couldn't make it on my own. And look, I'm some how managing to make it.

I've come a long way...it really doesn't seem like it though...I really feel like one big mess. I've still got a long way to go! I'm basically just a small town girl...Some will win...Some will lose...Some were born to sing the blues...

Here's hoping I win!

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